shaka says:
i was thinking about writing this post the day after valentine's, but couldn't because popgo was attacked (c.f. notice by aeug).
valentine's day could be wonderful to some and totally disastrous to others. this is proven by two of my roommates, who had completely different fates on 14 feb. one had a breakthrough in his relationship with a girl. they had been very close all along but neither side had formally defined the relationship. however, when my roommate came back on valentine's evening, he was grinning brightly and starting to refer to her as "my girlfriend", with a sense of pride and superiority (over unfortunate guys such as me :mad: ). another guy, however, was rejected when he tried to invite the girl to a valentine's concert. he came back without saying anything, heading straight for the bed.. :(
i always consider that valentine's day has nothing to do with me, at least at present stage. but somehow, the mood had affected me this time, and i became extremely depressed recently, for no reason. during the beach party at sentosa, i was walking aimlessly along the beach. i think my math tutor, a mid-aged women, still single (arael, do you know her, ms wong?), must have seen me wandering alone, because she went to me and said she'd like to give me some biscuits to eat. sympathise with me when finding me alone while other guys are busy flirting around? i appreciate it, but it's actually a bit extra. i wasn't feeling sad. i was just praying that the stupid event could end quickly so i could go home and sleep!
then the next day proved to be worse. the chinese orchestra organised an orientation activity for the new year-ones. we had a game called 'urban hike', in which all of us were divided into groups of six and were supposedly to do some embarassing and daring acts. guess what's my group's quest? ----- Buy a, ahem, condom! being the only male in the team, i was obliged to be the task-bearer. well, it's actually no big deal for me. i bought it normally, calmly, quickly. but when i rushed back to our meeting point, something deadly happened --- i lost my wallet! damn it, why my wallet? why not the condom? i need my wallet, i dont need that stupid thing. as such, i wasn't enjoying the later part of the game at all.
having been feeling awful during this period of time, plus the misfortune of losing my wallet, i decided that i should drink some beer, and hopefully i could be drunk and have a change of mood afterwards. that's naive thinking and i don't normally resort to drinking to relieve myself. in fact, i never drank alcohol before. and then something pleasantly surprising happened. i received a call from the police, saying that a lady, unwilling to reveal her identity, found my wallet and returned it to them (just one more reason to love singapore). they asked me to claim it back. Thank God! if anything happened lately had improved my unexplained gloominess, it has to be this great news. my desire to get drunk was thus eroded away but i drank the beer anyway. my inexperience with alcoholic stuff was immediately apparent when the two bottles of beer were shared by 4 roommates and each of us got only a few mouthful of beer. how to become drunk if it's only this small amout? but i initially thought 2 bottles were enough to make me drunk...hehe
that's all about my miserable life on the valentine's day and the day after. valentine's day...a lot of controversy indeed. February so far has been highly reckless, with the chinese new year, the muslim festive, and the valentine's interrupting the usual school life. now that the school has settled a bit, and the academic engine picks up speed again, i finally can resume my normal life as a student. now i'm worried about my overdue assignments more than anything else.....
(sorry. can't input chinese suddenly. it was meant to be in chinese originally. shall post the chinese version after i fix the problem)
