Do as what u believe, everybody has to enter the society some day. You have been there, no reason to draw back. :)
Although not sure what happened, anyway, I have to say, if you really want to give up something or forget something, it is not so difficult. The hidden obstacle is -- you don't REALLY want to!
Maybe you don't admit but it is the truth.
You know what kind of life you want, then you can pursue it. Always think about the optimistic part of the thing but with careful observation.
By the way, happy birthday! ^^
A new begin! Be happy!
No body can help you actually on psychological problem, but yourself. This is a kind of 咒. ;)
